All Choked Up!!

Another side effect of menopause for me is getting all choked up while telling a story.

For example, I watched Taylor Swift’s Speak Now Tour on YouTube and at the end she sings Love Story.  She steps into what is supposed to look like Juliet’s balcony, it is attached to cables and it lifts her up.  She sings and floats around the concert hall above the crowd.  It is wicked cool to watch.  I can only imagine how exhilarating it must have felt to her to be above the crowd, going around the room in the air and singing.  It was amazing.

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I was describing this to my friend and I hardly got into the story when I’m all choked up, tears in my eyes, unable to say the words.  I try to gain control, continue on, speak a few more sentences and it happens again.  We always laugh about it but it’s crazy.  I’m not sad about it.  I guess what I’m feeling is such happiness for her and imagine just how overwhelmed and thrilled she must have felt.  Think about it, you’re floating above thousands of people, singing your heart out…how incredible is that!  Talk about living your dream…

But wait it gets better.  Last week I was interviewing a woman for a position we have open and I was explaining the job duties, the hours, vacation time, sick pay and then as I was starting to tell her we also have bereavement pay, I am suddenly choked up, again with tears in my eyes.  Ok, I say to myself, get a grip you cannot lose it during an interview.

Now because I’m stressing I bring on a hot flash, not only can I not speak, my face is turning red, I’m sweating all over and all I want to do is rip my clothes off!  I wonder if she could tell all this was going on?   I finally did explain that I’m menopausal and apologized for the mini-meltdown (literally) and we continued on.

I’ve noticed that whenever I suddenly get stressed about something, that is a definite hot flash trigger and without fail I will have one.

My lovely hairdresser gets all my sobs, I’ll be telling her about how I’m epilating now and that she must try it, I really recommend it but before I can finish here come the tears!!!  I’m sobbing over epilating…that is the plucking of hairs out of your legs instead of shaving or waxing and I’m not sobbing because it hurts…I honestly don’t know why I’m sobbing but I am!!!   Or I’ll tell her how I bought my plane ticket to go to my nephew’s wedding…sob, sob, sob…how about the Today’s Special Value on QVC is Purity Facial Cleanser, you must try it…sob, sob, sob…I was watching Dancing with the Stars, sob, sob, sob…did you see that performer on The Voice, sob, sob, sob…you get the picture.

I’m a mess!!!

So if you happen to be speaking with a woman and she’s explaining how peanut butter and jelly is her favorite sandwich but is unable to finish the sentence due to tears…it’s me!!

xo

 

5 thoughts on “All Choked Up!!

  1. wicked cool, someone else used “wicked cool” in a post 🙂

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  2. Hormones are evil. Or lack of them. I feel ya, sister. I took HRT for 5 years–I would flash every hour. My doc told me that once I started the medication, it would take a few weeks to notice anything. The NEXT day, the flashes stopped. But, the emotions were all over the place. It does get better. 😁

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