OUR DAILY GRATEFUL POST!

TODAY I AM GRATEFUL FOR MOTIVATION!

I FEEL A NEW SONG GROWING

what are you grateful for ~ please share…

Thank you!

(c) onceuponahotflash, 2018

OUR DAILY GRATEFUL POST!

TODAY I AM GRATEFUL FOR CHRISTMAS DECORATIONS!

LOVE GETTING NEW DECORATIONS ~ WHO HAS THEIR TREE OR DECORATIONS UP?

what are you grateful for ~ please share…

Thank you!

(c) onceuponahotflash, 2017

OUR DAILY GRATEFUL POST!

TODAY I AM GRATEFUL FOR LAUGHTER!

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what are you grateful for ~ please share…

Thank you!

(c) onceuponahotflash.com, 2016

~ I’ve Won Today! ~

You know when you have that conversation in your mind and you have it over and over and over again?  Well today, while I was showering, (and why does everything occur in the shower by the way?) I was thinking about work and letting it consume me, as I have done every day for over a year now and I’m tired of it.  So I decided that I was NOT going to let work interfere with my weekend…this is my time and I am not going to give work one more second of my mind.  After I decided this, my mind was flooded with the poem below, which actually came into my head in song form.  So there is a tune that goes with it, but I’ll let you make up your own if you so choose!  🙂

I pay no heed to you
This is what I choose to do
And you have no control of me
This morning I have set you free

Now you must go along your way
For you see, I’ve won today!
So would you be so very kind
As to please get off my mind

When ever will you understand
That you’re no longer in the plan?
I cut the cord and said goodbye
Be on your way, don’t even try

I’ve chosen to be sad no more
Let me show you to the door
You’ll no longer beat me down
I have tired of this frown

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You start each day inside my head
But did you hear what I just said?
The conversation starts again
As you are trying to get in

But thrice I cut you from my life
My words are sharper than a knife
And all the time I wear this smile
Knowing you’ll be gone awhile

Oh you’ll be back again I know
But it’s getting easy to let go
My will grows stronger every minute
Especially without you in it

This battle it has gone my way
For you see, I’ve won today!

(c) onceuponahotflash, 2016

READY FOR A BRAND NEW DAY!

Here’s another song I wrote for Taylor Swift, if only I had a direct line to her…hmmmm!  Hope you like it.

 Ready for a Brand New Day
By Deb Cowdrey

Wake up, pop up, jump on out of bed
Sit up, push up, no downward dog instead

Drink my juice and think of you
Ready for a brand new day
Knowing that you love me too
Everything’s going my way

Wash up, wipe up, wondering what to wear
Dress up, make-up, now I do my hair

Pack my lunch and think of you
Ready for a brand new day
Knowing that you love me too
Everything’s going my way

Earrings, necklace, always running late
Dress boots, jacket, to see you I can’t wait

Lock the door and think of you
Ready for a brand new day
Knowing that you love me too
Everything’s going my way

Start car, backup, leave my lovely home
Traffic, people, everywhere I roam

Get to work and think of you
Ready for a brand new day
Knowing that you love me too
Everything’s going my way

Touch you, kiss you, hold you in my arms
Love you, missed you, you’re my lucky charm

Go to bed and think of you
Ready for a brand new day
Knowing that you love me too
Everything’s going my way

Ready for a brand new day
Ready for a brand new day

ODE TO OLD MAN WINTER!!

This past winter in the Northeast was brutal…which inspired me to write the poem below…I also see this as a song…music anyone?

 

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Til You’re Off My Mind
By Deb Cowdrey

I wake up every morning
To your cold and stark embrace
Rewriting all our history
It’s in your frigid face

I hope and pray and wish and dream
The chill will go away
But nothing is as it would seem
It’s here another day

You blast me without warning
Your stormy moods surround
With just one blow, a record low
You will not drag me down

Cold as ice, paid the price
Shivers down my spine
Must hang on, won’t be long
Til you’re off my mind

Been months and months of barrenness
The ice is in your name
Such lonely, lifeless, nothingness
I think I’ll go insane

And yet this isolation is a blessing in disguise
It’s brought me self-reflection
And some vision to these eyes

Cold as ice, paid the price
Shivers down my spine
Must hang on, won’t be long
Til you’re off my mind

I found a passion in me
I did not know was there
I’ve come alive, each day I strive
To journey without fear

So even though you’ve drained me
With your bitter, endless ways
I’m now refilled, there’s no more chill
It’s vanished in the haze

Cold as ice, paid the price
Shivers down my spine
Must hang on, won’t be long
Til you’re off my mind
Til you’re off my mind

All Choked Up!!

Another side effect of menopause for me is getting all choked up while telling a story.

For example, I watched Taylor Swift’s Speak Now Tour on YouTube and at the end she sings Love Story.  She steps into what is supposed to look like Juliet’s balcony, it is attached to cables and it lifts her up.  She sings and floats around the concert hall above the crowd.  It is wicked cool to watch.  I can only imagine how exhilarating it must have felt to her to be above the crowd, going around the room in the air and singing.  It was amazing.

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I was describing this to my friend and I hardly got into the story when I’m all choked up, tears in my eyes, unable to say the words.  I try to gain control, continue on, speak a few more sentences and it happens again.  We always laugh about it but it’s crazy.  I’m not sad about it.  I guess what I’m feeling is such happiness for her and imagine just how overwhelmed and thrilled she must have felt.  Think about it, you’re floating above thousands of people, singing your heart out…how incredible is that!  Talk about living your dream…

But wait it gets better.  Last week I was interviewing a woman for a position we have open and I was explaining the job duties, the hours, vacation time, sick pay and then as I was starting to tell her we also have bereavement pay, I am suddenly choked up, again with tears in my eyes.  Ok, I say to myself, get a grip you cannot lose it during an interview.

Now because I’m stressing I bring on a hot flash, not only can I not speak, my face is turning red, I’m sweating all over and all I want to do is rip my clothes off!  I wonder if she could tell all this was going on?   I finally did explain that I’m menopausal and apologized for the mini-meltdown (literally) and we continued on.

I’ve noticed that whenever I suddenly get stressed about something, that is a definite hot flash trigger and without fail I will have one.

My lovely hairdresser gets all my sobs, I’ll be telling her about how I’m epilating now and that she must try it, I really recommend it but before I can finish here come the tears!!!  I’m sobbing over epilating…that is the plucking of hairs out of your legs instead of shaving or waxing and I’m not sobbing because it hurts…I honestly don’t know why I’m sobbing but I am!!!   Or I’ll tell her how I bought my plane ticket to go to my nephew’s wedding…sob, sob, sob…how about the Today’s Special Value on QVC is Purity Facial Cleanser, you must try it…sob, sob, sob…I was watching Dancing with the Stars, sob, sob, sob…did you see that performer on The Voice, sob, sob, sob…you get the picture.

I’m a mess!!!

So if you happen to be speaking with a woman and she’s explaining how peanut butter and jelly is her favorite sandwich but is unable to finish the sentence due to tears…it’s me!!

xo